Loneliness is scary because no one needs you. You come to an empty house where no one is waiting for you. You have no one to care for and love, and no one to care for and love you. And besides, complete loneliness and lack of family is for me an indicator of a wasted life. If I remain alone, then in my old age I will ask myself: why the hell did I even live in this world if I left nothing behind?

Because previously, your parents played the role of saving you from the feeling of uselessness.
Now, when the prospect of losing them loomed, you began to look for a replacement for them....)))))

People don’t create normal families in order to be needed))))

Because the thought “no one will need me” automatically means “I am empty space”

Well, why then do they create families? People get married and live together because they need each other and need each other. After this, they have children so that these same children again feel needed. It’s not for nothing that many people so often repeat and complain about old age: “These are ungrateful children, there’s no one to even give water to in their old age.”

I have a complete family, my parents have lived together all their lives.
Now I am completely satisfied with my appearance. As I already wrote, in adolescence there were complexes regarding external shortcomings, but all this is in the past.
Unfortunately, there are no men in my circle. Always worked only in women's team, where the only man was the boss. During my studies, I was also surrounded by only girls, since my specialty was the humanities. Now I work for myself, so I don’t encounter men in my work.
Regarding male society, I have several male friends. I feel comfortable with them, although there were incidents when our friendship, under the influence of alcohol, almost developed into something more.

Hmm.....do you think the main thing is to get to know each other?
But it seemed to me that the main thing is to build a relationship after meeting, and for this you need common hobbies and interests.
What hobbies are you willing to share with a man? What's interesting about you?

And, I understand correctly, your usual pattern of events
A man shows interest
You respond and make a date.
On a date, you ask him questions
Everything ends...

Yes, naturally, building relationships is the main thing. But how can you build it if the acquaintance does not continue?
As for interests, it is mainly sports: skiing, snowboarding, running and cycling. I met those who were also interested in this. Among the universal interests are travel, theater, going to concerts.

Regarding the date, why do I immediately ask questions? We meet, ask each other questions, and talk about ourselves. Although I am not overly talkative - I am one of those people who likes to listen more than talk

Well, for example, from the last one:
We met and exchanged pleasantries like “nice to meet you, you look good.” He suggested we go somewhere to sit. Since he is not local, the choice of cafe was mine. We talked on the way to the cafe. First, I asked him what he did and where exactly he was from the USA. After that, he also asked me about life, about work, about hobbies. In the cafe, the conversation continued on similar topics about interests, hobbies, and life. I also asked him why he registered on the site, who exactly he was looking for and why. After an hour and a half, I interrupted the date, since I had an appointment with a friend in the evening, and I accompanied him to his hotel, where he was staying, since he is a foreigner and does not know the city. In parting, I told him that I was very pleased to meet you and I would be glad to meet again. He said pretty much the same thing and asked me to let him know when I have time in the next few days to meet with him. We hugged goodbye, he kissed me on the cheek - and that’s it.

I am interested in his life, smile, listen carefully, try not to lose visual contact with the person, look into his eyes.

I already wrote about my hobbies a little higher: sports, travel, theater, music and concerts.
I studied abroad for a master’s degree for two years, now I have returned to my homeland, and am currently working remotely as a translator for a foreign company. Previously, even before leaving and studying abroad, she worked as a project manager in charitable and international organizations.