Waiting monologue of a woman. Monologue of a woman (R. Rozhdestvensky)
Lyrics:
That's how... she came first! I should have been late
Stand somewhere on the side...
What can I do - I lost my nerves...
I walked as if I were going to an exam, counting the days since Friday...
Well: meeting under the clock...
Under the clock... here they are...
But he’s not there! (How inopportunely my nerves gave way!)
Well, I wish I hadn’t been on a date in so many years!
It’s even scary to count...
Am I happy or not? We'll see there...
I just had to, I had to be late...
Stupid! I did my hair, got into a new coat,
I was in a hurry like a girl! She came running! What's next?
Shrouded in vanity, but still divine as before!
She may be a little tired, but still beautiful as before!
Completely incomprehensible, not subject to anyone!
Modern woman modern woman!
Sometimes sad and thoughtful, sometimes bright and solemn!
Prove her weaknesses, overcome her in audacity,
Men try in vain, hope in vain!
Doesn't boast of strength, but on it, nevertheless,
Both official concerns and family concerns!
Having known everything in the world, gone through all the hardships,
The modern Woman remains a mystery!
My Romeo is still unnoticed...
Well, let's wait for him, I'm very modern!
Sometimes melancholy takes over: after all, you need to be, for example,
Flirty (slightly!) and unapproachable (in moderation!).
You manage to do everything: seem carefree
And buy flowers for yourself on the way home from work.
Do your own laundry, cook your own dinner.
Clean the apartment with unnecessary diligence...
Call a friend - married and happy
And to be considered very wise, to be very patient.
Listen to the words and repeat without arguing:
Of course you're right! Husbands are a complete disaster...
And hang up, calmly and tiredly
And, gritting your teeth, live, no matter what!
And toil alone, forgotten like a plant,
And wait for another damn birthday...
And look in the mirror and see all the wrinkles.
And feel sorry for yourself again. And more often - to hate!
Carry your sadness, play hide and seek with fate.
And cry at night. And be fine in the morning!
Showing up to college and getting angry for no reason...
Well, here they are walking down the street - men!
Handsome men to choose from, with arrogant dignity
The smug gender considered strong!
How indifferent you are and how disgusting you are!
Pampered lions, shabby tigers!
Looking people, aging bodies....
Well, where the hell is he?! And really, where is he?
Ambulance around the city, like across a field!
Raise the voice of universal misfortune, like a flag...
(Lord, maybe something happened to you?!)
The whole street turned around and froze.
The heart and memory are filled with a tight scream.
He announces: I wish I had time! I wish I had time! Be on time!..
The finger falls off the phone dial again!
An ambulance pierces a frozen avenue...
The world is looking around. Love asks for salvation.
And they are still not subject to the crowd of doctors -
The strongest friendships and families are destroyed.
And the singer has not song in her throat, but blood!
The voice of misfortune rushes over the city again...
It’s strange that at these moments, in spite of everything,
You believe in the eternal help of a quiet word.
IN ambulance an outstretched kind hand...
Well, come, beloved, come, forbid me to be lonely.
Come, please come. Lead me with you...
The arrows are stupid, rushing, not coming up with anything,
I have already forgiven you, my lord.
Everything is usual in my dream, I wish - not at all suddenly -
To be crucified on the cross with careful and strong hands!
What would make us hot, and then even hotter!..
And bury myself in your shoulder. And wake up on this shoulder...
You see, I managed to call you my favorite!
It wouldn’t be necessary - right away... After all, it’s better when it happens gradually.
After all, it’s better later, better after...
Darling, listen, it’s better...
But where can I find this best?!
Oh, if only you knew, my love, how scary and wild
Advertise yourself in the newspaper:
Blonde, quite pretty
That's how... she came first! I should have been late
Stand somewhere to the side...
What can I do? I lost my nerves...
I walked as if I were going to an exam, counting the days since Friday...
Well: meeting under the clock...
Under the clock... here they are...
But he’s not there! (How inopportunely my nerves gave way!)
Well, I wish I hadn’t been on a date in so many years!
It’s even scary to count...
Am I happy or not? We'll see there...
I just had to, I had to be late...
Stupid! I did my hair, got into a new coat,
I was in a hurry like a girl! She came running! What's next?
Shrouded in vanity, but still divine as before!
She may be a little tired, but still beautiful as before!
Completely incomprehensible, not subject to anyone!
Modern woman, modern woman!
Sometimes sad and thoughtful, sometimes bright and solemn!
Prove her weaknesses, overcome her in audacity,
Men try in vain, hope in vain!
Doesn't boast of strength, but on it, nevertheless,
Both official concerns and family concerns!
Having known everything in the world, gone through all the hardships,
The modern Woman remains a mystery!
My Romeo is still unnoticed...
Well, let's wait for him, I'm very modern!
Sometimes melancholy takes over: after all, you need to be, for example,
Flirty (slightly!) and unapproachable (in moderation!).
You manage to do everything: seem carefree
And buy flowers for yourself on the way home from work.
Do your own laundry, cook your own dinner.
Cleaning the apartment with unnecessary diligence...
Call a friend - married and happy
And to be considered very wise, to be very patient.
Listen to the words and repeat without arguing:
Of course you're right! Husbands are a complete disaster...
And hang up, calmly and tiredly
And, gritting your teeth, live, no matter what!
And toil alone, forgotten like a plant,
And wait for another damn birthday...
And look in the mirror and see all the wrinkles.
And feel sorry for yourself again. And more often - hate!
Carry your sadness, play hide and seek with fate.
And cry at night. And be fine in the morning!
Showing up to college and getting angry for no reason...
Well, here they are walking down the street - men!
Handsome men to choose from, with arrogant dignity
The smug gender considered strong!
How indifferent you are and how disgusting you are!
Pampered lions, shabby tigers!
Looking like people, aging bodies...
Well, where the hell is he?! And really, where is he?
...Ambulance around the city, like across a field!
Raise the voice of universal misfortune, like a flag...
(Lord, maybe something happened to you?!)
The whole street turned around and froze.
The heart and memory are filled with a tight scream.
He announces: I wish I had time! I wish I had time! Be on time!..
The finger falls off the phone dial again!
An ambulance pierces a frozen avenue...
The world is looking around. Love asks for salvation.
And they are still not subject to the crowd of doctors -
The strongest friendships and families are destroyed.
And the singer has not song in her throat, but blood!
The voice of misfortune rushes over the city again...
It’s strange that at these moments, in spite of everything,
You believe in the eternal help of a quiet word.
In the ambulance of an outstretched kind hand....
...Well, come, beloved, come, forbid me to be lonely.
Come, please come. Lead me with you...
The arrows are stupid, rushing, not coming up with anything,
I have already forgiven you, my lord.
Everything is usual in my dream, I wish - not at all suddenly -
To be crucified on the cross with careful and strong hands!
What would make us hot, and then even hotter!..
And bury myself in your shoulder. And wake up on this shoulder...
You see, I managed to call you my favorite!
It wouldn’t be necessary - right away... After all, it’s better when it’s done gradually.
After all, it’s better later, better after...
Darling, listen, it’s better...
But where can I find this best?!
Oh, if only you knew, my love, how scary and wild
Advertise yourself in the newspaper:
Blonde, quite pretty, kind, of average height...
Her interests: home comfort and nature.
Has a profession, is looking for a reliable friend...
Oh, if you only knew how it all went and how difficult...
Sometimes, in the dark, I think very calmly:
This loneliness will pass, another will come,
The time will come and the leaves of copper will begin to swirl.
The loneliness of death will knock on my window...
No, I'm not scared. I know that time is cruel.
I understand. And I accept everything.
But it’s just that loneliness that I don’t want to give in to!
I want to be loved! I want to stay alive!
I laugh at others and enjoy the days and sunrises!
And - I do stupid things! And I don’t regret it!
I breathe and hope... Oh, God, how painful it is!..
You see, my love: here I am, all in front of you!..
Tell me the words! Well, please, no more urine!..
Just don't be silent! Tell me words, tell me any words!
Whatever you want, so long as it’s not silent, my love!
Tell me the words. Without this, joy is not joy...
Tell me I'm okay. And that you like me.
Say that you love me! Pretend for a moment!
Lie that you won't forget me. Lie, I'll believe it.
...Or he can just spit and leave, and let him be tormented by remorse!
(Well, well, joke, darling, joke! You’ve found a nice reason for fun...)
I’ll stay to test my will!..
Let's wait a little longer. Let's wait...
After all, women have long been accustomed to waiting for something, and we can do this...
...Birds will figure out how to hide... They are not born alone.
They then become...
The winter winds blow away and return.
Why, why, loneliness, don’t you say goodbye to me?
Even if I feel cold and gloomy, I will endure everything that has to be done...
Loneliness - your profession is incredibly difficult!
The night is deserted. Tears in the dark. Unanswerable silence.....
Loneliness is a punishment. And for what - I don’t know...
The night will end. The pain will remain. The day will spin at first...
People are not born alone. Loneliness is learned.
...Well, come, my love! Come! Forbid me to be lonely!
Lead me with you... Come, please, come!
When you suffocate, hold it close to you for good or bad...
If you want, get married. If you don’t want to, I’ll go anyway...
...What a word married - sweet smoke....
If only he would come, then we’ll see...
Even if he doesn’t have a lot of money in terms of money,
Let's take a shower, dress up - nothing!..
If only my house, my hateful house, was not empty...
Let him come - big and strong - let him smoke!
Argue if you want! Let him snore!..
It’s so peaceful if someone is sleeping nearby...
It would be good if he didn’t drink much... And he loved, at least a little!..
However, if only there was...
I definitely can’t live without him now!..
Why am I doing this?! But what, what am I?!
Damn you! Don’t come!.. It’s disgusting to remember...
Get lost! Disappear! Get lost! I've been a bitch about it!..
I don’t want to pick up other people’s crumbs from the table!
If you want to lie again, lie to another idiot!..
Look, a standard has been found! I've seen people like that in a coffin!
To me too - Alain Delon of village scale!
Womanizer! That's all! Coward! Now I know for sure...
He decided that I would trade my freedom for him?!
I thought the lady was in love!.. What? Didn't it work out? Eat yourself!
Your honor, the price is three kopecks at the market!
I can find these everywhere! Ten pieces for every evening!
Don't call - I won't come! If you write, I won’t answer!
How can I live without you? How? You were a bird in your hands.
What am I without you? It's like no man's land. My pain is groaning.
I would follow you! I would walk with my eyes closed, silent as a tear...
How can I live without you? Become a bird in the clouds?
Flying in the darkness of the night? The wings are no longer the same...
I drink evil sadness. I'm angry at my fate. I see her light...
Is there or not? My scream is rushing about! It is hidden to others.
Pain radiates from my temples: how can I live without you? How?
...I will become a faithful wife. Don't pass by -
I will be a faithful wife. Above fate and above home
I will become a kind sun, above fate and above the house.
If you want, I'll be your sister. I will cover you from misfortunes,
If you want, I’ll be a sister... You say, I’ll be a slave,
If only a loved one, then I can also be a slave...
...Who can command a miracle: Come to pass!..-
Going cold from your own scream?..
It seems to me that I have been waiting almost since birth.
I will wait until the very end!
I will wait beyond death and beyond!
My sisters' hearts are beating inside me!
Sisters in life and in expectation.
...At this hour, millions of my unknown sisters,
Without saying anything, without repenting of anything to anyone,
Waiting for the moment to ascend to the high fire,
To the fire true love, and burn while smiling!
At this hour my sisters are on the crest of such heights,
Stretching out tender calling hands into immortality,
Waiting for their loved ones under the clock of the universal dream
Under the clock of fate, under the clock of hope and torment...
In this explosive world of already forgotten silence,
Where sleepless time flies indifferently over everyone,
You will never have to wait for your loved ones from the war!
You will never have to wait for your loved ones in vain!
Next to the bronze of kings who grew fat on lies and blood,
Next to the bronze of heroes who risked themselves overnight,
There should be a monument to a Woman waiting for love!
A bright monument to a woman waiting for ordinary happiness...
Winter comes again in a whirlwind of snowstorms and cold
Once again the night sky is open to stars and snowflakes...
I'll wait anyway! I will definitely wait for happiness!
And I want you to believe in this with me!
...Well, come, my love! Come!..
That's how... she came first! I should have been late, stood somewhere on the side... What can I do - my nerves gave way... I walked as if I were going to an exam, counting the days since Friday... Well: a meeting under the clock... Under the clock... here they... And he’s not there! (How inopportunely my nerves gave way!) Well, I wish I hadn’t been on a date in so many years! It’s even scary to count.... Am I happy or not happy? We'll see there... But we had to, we had to be late.... Stupid! I did my hair, got into a new coat, I was in a hurry like a girl! She came running! What's next? Modern woman, modern woman! Shrouded in vanity, but still divine as before! She may be a little tired, but still beautiful as before! Completely incomprehensible, not subject to anyone! Modern woman, modern woman! Sometimes sad and thoughtful, sometimes bright and solemn! To prove her weaknesses, to overcome her in audacity, Men try in vain, hope in vain! She does not boast of her strength, but, nevertheless, she has both official concerns and family concerns! Having known everything in the world, having gone through all the hardships, the modern Woman remains a mystery! My Romeo is still unnoticed... Well, let's wait for him, I am very modern! Sometimes you feel melancholy: you need to be, for example, Flirty (slightly!) and unapproachable (in moderation!). You manage to do everything: appear carefree and buy flowers for yourself on the way home from work. Do your own laundry, cook your own dinner. Clean the apartment with unnecessary diligence... Call a friend - married and happy And be considered very wise, be very patient. Listen to the words and repeat without arguing: Of course, you’re right! Husbands are pure grief... And hang up the phone, calmly and tiredly And, gritting your teeth, live, no matter what! And toil alone, forgotten like a plant, And wait for another damn birthday... And look in the mirror and see all the wrinkles. And feel sorry for yourself again. And more often - to hate! Carry your sadness, play hide and seek with fate. And cry at night. And be fine in the morning! Show up at college and get angry for no reason... Well, here they are walking down the street - men! Handsome men to choose from, with arrogant dignity. The self-satisfied sex, considered strong! How indifferent you are and how disgusting you are! Pampered lions, shabby tigers! Looking like people, aging bodies... Well, where the hell is he?! And really, where is he? ...Ambulance around the city, like across a field! Raise the voice of universal misfortune, like a flag... (Lord, maybe something happened to you?!) The whole street turned around and froze. The heart and memory are filled with a tight scream. He announces: I wish I had time! I wish I had time! Make it in time!.. Once again the finger falls off the telephone dial! An ambulance pierces the frozen avenue... The world looks around. Love asks for salvation. And they are still beyond the control of the crowd of doctors. The strongest friendships and families are crumbling. And the singer has not song in her throat, but blood! The voice of misfortune rushes over the city again... It’s strange that in these moments, in spite of everything, You believe in the eternal help of a quiet word. In the ambulance of an outstretched kind hand.... ...Well, come, beloved, come, forbid me to be lonely. Come, please come. Lead me with you... Hurrying stupid arrows, not coming up with anything, I have already forgiven you, my master. Everything is usual in my dream, I wish - not at all suddenly - To be crucified on the cross with careful and strong hands! So that we could feel hot, and then even hotter!.. And bury ourselves in your shoulder. And wake up on this shoulder... You see, I managed to call you my favorite! It wouldn’t be necessary - right away... After all, it’s better when it happens gradually. After all, it’s better later, it’s better after... Darling, listen, it’s better... But where will I find this best?!
That's how... she came first! I should have been late
Stand somewhere on the side...
What can I do - I lost my nerves...
I walked as if I were going to an exam, counting the days since Friday...
Well: meeting under the clock...
Under the clock... here they are...
But he’s not there! (How inopportunely my nerves gave way!)
Well, I wish I hadn’t been on a date in so many years!
Am I happy or not? We'll see there...
I just had to, I had to be late...
Stupid! I did my hair, got into a new coat,
Shrouded in vanity, but still divine as before!
She may be a little tired, but still beautiful as before!
Completely incomprehensible, not subject to anyone!
Modern woman, modern woman!
Sometimes sad and thoughtful, sometimes bright and solemn!
Prove her weaknesses, overcome her in audacity,
Men try in vain, hope in vain!
Doesn't boast of strength, but on it, nevertheless,
Both official concerns and family concerns!
Having known everything in the world, gone through all the hardships,
The modern Woman remains a mystery!
My Romeo is still unnoticed...
Well, let's wait for him, I'm very modern!
Sometimes melancholy takes over: after all, you need to be, for example,
Flirty (slightly!) and unapproachable (in moderation!).
You manage to do everything: seem carefree
And buy flowers for yourself on the way home from work.
Do your own laundry, cook your own dinner.
Clean the apartment with unnecessary diligence...
Call a friend - married and happy
And to be considered very wise, to be very patient.
Listen to the words and repeat without arguing:
Of course you're right! Husbands are a complete disaster...
And hang up, calmly and tiredly
And, gritting your teeth, live, no matter what!
And toil alone, forgotten like a plant,
And wait for another damn birthday...
And look in the mirror and see all the wrinkles.
And feel sorry for yourself again. And more often - to hate!
Carry your sadness, play hide and seek with fate.
And cry at night. And be fine in the morning!
Showing up to college and getting angry for no reason...
Well, here they are walking down the street - men!
Handsome men to choose from, with arrogant dignity
The smug gender considered strong!
How indifferent you are and how disgusting you are!
Pampered lions, shabby tigers!
Looking people, aging bodies....
Well, where the hell is he?! And really, where is he?
Ambulance around the city, like across a field!
(Lord, maybe something happened to you?!)
The whole street turned around and froze.
The heart and memory are filled with a tight scream.
He announces: I wish I had time! I wish I had time! Be on time!..
The finger falls off the phone dial again!
An ambulance pierces a frozen avenue...
The world is looking around. Love asks for salvation.
And they are still not subject to the crowd of doctors -
The strongest friendships and families are destroyed.
And the singer has not song in her throat, but blood!
It’s strange that at these moments, in spite of everything,
You believe in the eternal help of a quiet word.
An outstretched kind hand to the ambulance....
Well, come, beloved, come, forbid me to be lonely.
Come, please come. Lead me with you...
The arrows are stupid, rushing, not coming up with anything,
I have already forgiven you, my lord.
Everything is usual in my dream, I wish - not at all suddenly -
To be crucified on the cross with careful and strong hands!
What would make us hot, and then even hotter!..
And bury myself in your shoulder. And wake up on this shoulder...
You see, I managed to call you my favorite!
It wouldn’t be necessary - right away... After all, it’s better when it happens gradually.
After all, it’s better later, better after...
Darling, listen, it’s better...
But where can I find this best?!
Oh, if only you knew, my love, how scary and wild
Advertise yourself in the newspaper:
Blonde, quite pretty, kind, average height...
Her interests: home comfort and nature.
Has a profession, is looking for a reliable friend...
Oh, if you only knew how it all went and how difficult...
Sometimes, in the dark, I think very calmly:
This loneliness will pass, another will come,
The time will come and the leaves of copper will begin to swirl.
The loneliness of death will knock on my window...
No, I'm not scared. I know that time is cruel.
I understand. And I accept everything.
But it’s just that loneliness that I don’t want to give in to!
I want to be loved! I want to stay alive!
I laugh at others and enjoy the days and sunrises!
And I do stupid things! And I don’t regret it!
I breathe and hope... Oh, God, how painful it is!..
You see, my love: here I am - all in front of you!..
Tell me the words! Well, please, no more urine!..
Just don't be silent! Tell me words, tell me any words!
Whatever you want, so long as it’s not silent, my love!
Tell me the words. Without this, joy is not joy...
Tell me I'm okay. And that you like me.
Say that you love me! Pretend for a moment!
Lie that you won't forget me. Lie, I'll believe it.
Or he can just spit and leave, and let him be tormented by remorse!
(Well, well, joke, darling, joke! You’ve found a nice reason for fun...)
I’ll stay to test my will!..
Let's wait a little longer. Let's slow down...
After all, women have long been accustomed to waiting for something, and we can do this...
The birds will figure out how to hide... They are not born alone.
They then become...
The winter winds blow away and return.
Why, why, loneliness, don’t you say goodbye to me?
Even if I feel cold and gloomy, I will endure everything that has to be done...
Loneliness - your profession is incredibly difficult!
The night is deserted. Tears in the dark. Unanswerable silence.....
Loneliness is a punishment. And for what - I don’t know...
The night will end. The pain will remain. The day will begin to spin...
People are not born alone. Loneliness is learned.
Well, come, my love! Come! Forbid me to be lonely!
Lead me with you... Come, please, come!
When you suffocate, hold it close to you for good or bad...
If you want, get married. If you don’t want to, I’ll go anyway...
What a word to get married - sweet smoke...
If only he would come, then we’ll see...
Even if he doesn’t have a lot of money in terms of money,
Let's take a shower, dress up - nothing!..
If only my house, my hateful house, was not empty...
Let him come - big and strong - let him smoke!
Argue if you want! Let him snore!..
It's so peaceful if someone is sleeping nearby...
It would be good if he didn’t drink much... And he loved, at least a little!..
However, if only there was...
I definitely can’t live without him now!..
Why am I doing this?! But what, what am I?!
Damn you! Don’t come!.. It’s disgusting to remember...
Get lost! Disappear! Get lost! I've been a bitch about it!..
I don’t want to pick up other people’s crumbs from the table!
If you want to lie again, lie to another idiot!..
Look, a standard has been found! I've seen people like that in a coffin!
To me too - Alain Delon of village scale!
Womanizer! That's all! Coward! Now I know for sure...
He decided that I would trade my freedom for him?!
I thought the lady was in love!.. What? Didn't it work out? Eat yourself!
Your honor, the price is three kopecks at the market!
I can find these everywhere! Ten pieces for every evening!
Don't call - I won't come! If you write, I won’t answer!
How can I live without you? How? You were a bird in your hands.
What am I without you? It's like no man's land. My pain is groaning.
I would follow you! I would walk with my eyes closed, silent as a tear...
How can I live without you? Become a bird in the clouds?
Flying in the darkness of the night? The wings are no longer the same...
I drink evil sadness. I'm angry at my fate. I see her light...
Is there or not? My scream is rushing about! It is hidden to others.
Pain radiates from my temples: how can I live without you? How?
I will become a faithful wife. Don't pass by -
I will be a faithful wife. Above fate and above home
I will become a kind sun, above fate and above the house.
If you want, I'll be your sister. I will cover you from misfortunes,
If you want, I'll be a sister... You say, I'll be a slave,
If only a loved one, then I can also be a slave...
Who can command a miracle: Come to pass!..-
Going cold from your own scream?..
It seems to me that I have been waiting almost since birth.
I will wait until the very end!
I will wait beyond death and beyond!
My sisters' hearts are beating inside me!
Sisters in life and in expectation.
At this hour, millions of my unknown sisters,
Without saying anything, without repenting of anything to anyone,
Waiting for the moment to ascend to the high fire,
On the fire of true love, and burn while smiling!
At this hour my sisters are on the crest of such heights,
Stretching out tender calling hands into immortality,
Waiting for their loved ones under the clock of the universal dream
Under the clock of fate, under the clock of hope and torment...
In this explosive world of already forgotten silence,
Where sleepless time flies indifferently over everyone,
You will never have to wait for your loved ones from the war!
You will never have to wait for your loved ones in vain!
Next to the bronze of kings who grew fat on lies and blood,
Next to the bronze of heroes who risked themselves overnight,
There should be a monument to a Woman waiting for love!
A bright monument to a woman waiting for ordinary happiness...
Winter comes again in a whirlwind of snowstorms and cold
Once again the night sky is open to stars and snowflakes...
I'll wait anyway! I will definitely wait for happiness!
And I want you to believe in this with me!
Well, come, my love! Come!..
That's how... she came first! I should have been late, stood somewhere off to the side... What can I do - my nerves gave way... I walked as if I was going to an exam, counting the days since Friday... Of course: a meeting under the clock... Under the clock... here they are... But he’s not there! (How inopportunely my nerves gave way!) Well, I wish I hadn’t been on a date in so many years! It’s even scary to count...
Am I happy or not? We'll see there... We just had to, we had to be late.... Stupid! I did my hair, got into a new coat, I was in a hurry like a girl! She came running! What's next?
Modern woman, modern woman! Shrouded in vanity, but still divine as before! She may be a little tired, but still beautiful as before! Completely incomprehensible, not subject to anyone!
Modern woman, modern woman! Sometimes sad and thoughtful, sometimes bright and solemn! To prove her weaknesses, to overcome her in audacity, Men try in vain, hope in vain!
She does not boast of her strength, but, nevertheless, she has both official concerns and family concerns! Having known everything in the world, having gone through all the hardships, the modern Woman remains a mystery!
My Romeo is still unnoticed... Well, let's wait for him, I am very modern! Sometimes you feel melancholy: you need to be, for example, Flirty (slightly!) and unapproachable (in moderation!).
You manage to do everything: appear carefree and buy flowers for yourself on the way home from work. Do your own laundry, cook your own dinner. Cleaning the apartment with unnecessary diligence...
Call a friend - married and happy And reputed to be very wise, to be very patient. Listen to the words and repeat without arguing: Of course, you’re right! Husbands are a complete disaster...
And hang up the phone, calmly and tiredly And, gritting your teeth, live, no matter what! And toil alone, forgotten like a plant, And wait for another damn birthday...
And look in the mirror and see all the wrinkles. And feel sorry for yourself again. And more often - to hate! Carry your sadness, play hide and seek with fate. And cry at night. And be fine in the morning!
Show up at college and get angry for no reason... Well, here they are walking down the street - men! Handsome men to choose from, with arrogant dignity. The self-satisfied sex, considered strong!
How indifferent you are and how disgusting you are! Pampered lions, shabby tigers! Looking like people, aging bodies... Well, where the hell is he?! And really, where is he?
...Ambulance around the city, like across a field! Raise the voice of universal misfortune, like a flag... (Lord, maybe something happened to you?!) The whole street turned around and froze.
The heart and memory are filled with a tight scream. He announces: I wish I had time! I wish I had time! Make it in time!.. Once again the finger falls off the telephone dial! An ambulance pierces the frozen avenue... The world looks around. Love asks for salvation.
And they are still beyond the control of the crowd of doctors. The strongest friendships and families are crumbling. And the singer has not song in her throat, but blood! The voice of misfortune rushes over the city again...
It’s strange that in these moments, despite everything, you believe in the eternal help of a quiet word. In the ambulance of an outstretched kind hand....
...Well, come, beloved, come, forbid me to be lonely. Come, please come. Lead me with you... Hurrying stupid arrows, not coming up with anything, I have already forgiven you, my master.
Everything is usual in my dream, I wish - not at all suddenly - To be crucified on the cross with careful and strong hands! So that we could feel hot, and then even hotter!.. And bury ourselves in your shoulder. And wake up on this shoulder...
You see, I managed to call you my favorite! It wouldn’t be necessary - right away... After all, it’s better when it happens gradually. After all, it’s better later, it’s better after... Darling, listen, it’s better... But where will I find this best?!
Oh, if you only knew, my love, how scary and wild it is to advertise yourself in the newspaper: Blonde, quite pretty, kind, of average height... Her interests: home comfort and nature. He has a profession, is looking for a reliable friend... Oh, if you only knew how it all went and how difficult it was...
Sometimes, in the dark, I reason very calmly: This loneliness will pass, another will come, The time will come and leaves of copper will begin to swirl. The loneliness of death will knock on my window...
No, I'm not scared. I know that time is cruel. I understand. And I accept everything. But it’s just that loneliness that I don’t want to give in to! I want to be loved! I want to stay alive! I laugh at others and enjoy the days and sunrises! And I do stupid things! And I don’t regret it! I breathe and hope... Oh, God, how painful it is!..
You see, my love: here I am - all in front of you!.. Tell me the words! Well, please, no more urine!.. Just not in silence! Tell me words, tell me any words! Whatever you want, so long as it’s not silent, my love! Tell me the words. Without this, joy is not joy... Tell me that everything is fine with me. And that you like me. Say that you love me! Pretend for a moment! Lie that you won't forget me. Lie, I'll believe it.
...Or he can just spit and leave, and let him be tormented by remorse! (Well, well, joke, darling, joke! You’ve found a nice reason for fun...) I’ll stay to test my will!.. Let’s wait a little longer. Let’s pause... After all, women have long been accustomed to waiting for something, and we can do this...
...Birds will figure out how to hide... They are not born alone. They then become... The winter winds blow away and return. Why, why, loneliness, don’t you say goodbye to me? Even if I’m cold and sad, I’ll endure everything that’s due... Loneliness - you’re an incredibly difficult profession! The night is deserted. Tears in the dark. Unanswered silence….. Loneliness is a punishment. And for what - I don’t know... The night will end. The pain will remain. The day will begin to spin... One is not born alone. Loneliness is learned.
...Well, come, my love! Come! Forbid me to be lonely! Lead me with you... Come, please, come! When you suffocate, hold her close to you for good or bad... If you want, get married. If you don’t want to, I’ll go anyway… …The word is like marriage—sweet smoke…. If only he would come, then we’ll see... Even if he doesn’t have a lot of money in terms of money - Let’s get cozy, dress up - nothing!.. If only my house, the hateful house, wasn’t empty... Let him come - big and strong - let him smoke! Argue if you want! Let him snore!.. So calm if someone is sleeping next to him... It would be good if he didn’t drink much... And he loved, at least a little!.. But, if only he was... I definitely can’t live without him now!.. But why should I So?! But what, what am I?!
Damn you! Don’t come!.. Remembering it is disgusting... Perish! Disappear! Get lost! I’ve let my nose go!.. I don’t want to pick up other people’s crumbs from the table! If you want to lie again, lie to another idiot!.. Look, a standard has been found! I've seen people like that in a coffin! To me too - Alain Delon of village scale! Womanizer! That's all! Coward! Now I know for sure... He decided that I would trade my freedom for him?! I thought the lady was in love!.. What? Didn't it work out? Eat yourself! Your honor, the price is three kopecks at the market! I can find these everywhere! Ten pieces for every evening! Don't call - I won't come! If you write, I won’t answer!
How can I live without you? How? You were a bird in your hands. What am I without you? It's like no man's land. My pain is groaning. I would follow you! I would walk with my eyes closed, silent as a tear... How can I be without you? Become a bird in the clouds? Flying in the darkness of the night? The wings are no longer the same... I drink evil sadness. I'm angry at my fate. I see its light... Is it there or not? My scream is rushing about! It is hidden to others. Pain radiates from my temples: how can I live without you? How?
...I will become a faithful wife. Don’t pass by, I will be a faithful wife. Above fate and above the house I will become a kind sun, above fate and above the house. If you want, I'll be your sister. I’ll protect you from misfortunes, If you want, I’ll be a sister... You say, I’ll be a slave, If only a loved one, then I can be a slave...
...Who can order a miracle: Come to pass!..- Going cold from your own scream? It seems to me that I have been waiting almost since birth. I will wait until the very end! I will wait beyond death and beyond! My sisters' hearts are beating inside me! Sisters in life and in expectation.
...At this hour, millions of my unknown sisters, Without saying anything, without repenting of anything to anyone, Waiting for the moment to ascend to a high bonfire, To the bonfire of true love, and burn, smiling! At this hour, my sisters are on the crest of such a height, Extending their inviting tender hands into immortality, Waiting for their loved ones under the clock of the universal dream Under the clock of fate, under the clock of hope and torment... In this explosive world of already forgotten silence, Where sleepless time flies above everyone indifferently, You will never have to wait for your loved ones from the war! You will never have to wait for your loved ones in vain!
Next to the bronze of kings who grew fat on lies and blood, Next to the bronze of heroes who risked themselves overnight, there should be a monument to a woman waiting for love! A bright monument to a Woman waiting for ordinary happiness... Winter comes again in a whirlwind of snowstorms and cold. Once again the night sky is open for stars and snowflakes... Still, I’ll wait! I will definitely wait for happiness! And I want you to believe in this with me! ...Well, come, my love! Come!..
